emotional baggage

Have you ever felt that you wanted to do something but you’re scared to do it? I’m feeling so anxious these days. I wanted to apply for a part time job but every time there’s an offer I feel that I’m not confident to do it. Now I feel like I’m hiding to those employer who actually hired me or trust me to write articles for them. Also, I just felt that it’s not worth it, $1 for 300 words article/ 8 articles a day. It consumes most of my time and writing article for me with specific keyword is not that easy, I need to think and make sure it’s original. I don’t want to plagarize some one else work. I'm becoming so unprofessional.

Then there’s this one who actually wants to interview me, I dunno the task yet but it’s something to do with SEO. I haven’t talk to her and I’m chickening out. I don’t know where’s my self-confidence go? I’m loosing trust on my own self. I know this is not the same me for I have done this before, I just don’t know why right now, I don’t have that gut to do things.

How can I be that person with so much confident? How? L

I was surprised when I read my email that Havaianas launched a bag collection! It is such a perfect match to our favorite flip flops. The bag looks very stylish, combine classic shapes with Havaianas aesthetics.



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Hmmm still thinking if I should include this to my Christmas wish list

Your lovescope for November 15, 2009 Something could bring you much closer to someone special. The chance to talk will reveal exciting interests that you both share, and also pave the way for new developments in the future. If you have any issues that you need to discuss, then it is best to get these out of the way first, to ensure a smooth journey ahead.

just this Friday we found out that his friend just broke up with his special someone, that special someone let him go for him to be happy. Sad but as he has said he can't think of any negative things to their relationship he just needed space and time to be happy alone.

Then my baby told me that we should talk about it also, we should talk anything that might happen to the relationship like what if we don't end up together. He said he wants me to be strong, while he is saying that I feel like I'm going to cry I don't like to think that the relationship will end. I don't think I can accept that. I will die.

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I found this letter but it has no exact date, I believe this came after the first monthsary

baby,

good morning!

i just want to make you remember...
no matter how shitty things get
between us.

i am still that person who would
always care for you...

i'll always, always be around,
it may seem that i am shallow-
pa-joke2 lang and shit.

But truth is, no words could explain
how much i value you & I Love You...

i love you and nobody can change that, nothing,
always & forever..

Love,

- hirap magsulat
dito sa bus, ehehe

Kainin mo 'to baon
mo ha baby...

----

Sweet right? He gave me baon (packed lunch) before I go to work. He cooked it and it tasted delicious (pede ng mag asawa) hehe

kaw-> When was the last time someone cooked for you?

Your lovescope for November 13, 2009 The intense period of time you have recently experienced may give you a good reason to get some clarity on your relationship with your romantic partner. If you have been spending most of your time together, with very little chance to meet up with family or friends, then give each other some much-needed space today. If you don't, then you may find that you begin to really get on each other's nerves, and that would be a great pity!

and yes he is partying with his co-workers at this very moment while I'm home alone here blogging!

good night

pink: her
green: him

certified four grated cheese!! super cheesy haha

This is the first letter I received from him - a special letter given to me on our first monthsary. We did not celebrate it glamorously instead we meet after work and just dine in at McDonalds.

I know the first time we saw each other I fell in love with him, his smart, funny and really nice. I know his the one.

July 6,2009

My everdearest Babylove,

Happy 1st Monthsary!

i love you so much.. Forever...
Thanks for coming into my life.
i may not be the best boyfriend
i swear it's okay...
but trust me, i could be the
best partner and perfect hubby
in the future.. I promise!
I love you baby.. muah!

Love,

p.s
I won't name names I will use babylove (for him and her)

This would serve as my personal blog, anything that you may read here is my personal opinion. As the title of this blog says it is all about my emotions. You may find love letters, love messages, rants and raves and side stories about my life.

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